I love baking. Baking and me are like this:
I have baked pies.
I have baked cakes. (One of them looked like a duck… but you probably noticed that…)
I am also a huge fan of cupcakes.
If I ever own a bakery, its main feature would be cupcakes.
For the refreshments after my postgrad conference last week, I contributed miniature pies: chocolate and apple. It was a double win: everyone enjoyed the pies and I had the beneficial stress relief that baking offers before standing up in front of a room full of professors and postgrads and talking about structural analysis of medieval Welsh narrative.
But the funny thing about food is that I am not actually a huge fan of eating it. At least, not right now. I mean, I love to bake, I love sweet things, I have certain foods (mac and cheese, anyone?) that I cannot seem to function without. And yet, when I bake, I rarely want to eat the cakes, pies, cupcakes, or candies. I’d rather let other people do the eating. Leave the baking to me.
This is due, in large part, to a medication I take for my migraines. A possible side effect is a loss of appetite and boy, did I ever get that one. It didn’t seem so bad when I was losing weight and feeling good about myself, but it is actually kind of annoying. If I’m excited and distracted, I forget mealtimes. Eating isn’t fun for me the way it is for other people. It’s just that thing that I do to stay alive.
And yet, I love to bake!
Because sweet things are my specialty and cooking is not my forte, when I do eat, I tend to eat unhealthy things – that leftover cupcake from a friend’s party I baked for or maybe some pasta because it’s easy! This, I am well aware, is not proper eating.
So, I have a new goal for myself.
Not only will I eat, but I will eat healthy things! I’m not really in need of a full on special diet, but I do want to feel good about the food choices I make. I will indulge in treats, because sweet things are my joy in life.
But I will also have meals like this one:
And I will like it!
(For the record, my grilled chicken salad and mug of hot chicken soup was delicious. Real food for the win!)